When I'm sad about smth, when I regret somethings, when I want something, I mean it.

 Really mean it. But when you're sad about something, when you regret somethings, when you want something, you don't seem to mean it. So the question is, what made you change? And the question to myself is, why do you even bother? It's no longer a want to bother, it's a need to bother. Mind to heart: thought we've already long settled this. That you've long bade goodbye?