Don't understand. Why did it turn out this way. Did I or did I not put in enough effort. Never wanted something so much in a long long time. Just gonna give myself one last day to brood and sulk at the matter of fact that this is the first time, I've failed in achieving what I want. Life is such, I guess. It's not what we know, but rather, who we know. Just gonna blame myself for the lack of PR skills. Other than that. Fuck everything. Your loss, not mine.