March 6th, 6.04 PM
Today, is the day.
I didn't accompany Ellie to the hospital today,
because she wanted to be the only one there to receive the results.
So here I am, sitting on the couch, awaiting for the answers.
Keeping my fingers crossed.
March 6th, 8.00PM
The results r out.
There were antibodies of HIV detected from the ELISA test.
Ellie arrived at my doorstep, her eyes red-rimmed.
Her emotions were so palpable.
.....
I wanted to cry. But I knew I couldn't.
Ellie needs me. I have to be strong.
I sat her down onto the couch, clutching her hands tight.
I needed to give her assurance and support.
Me: " Why is that so, Ellie?"
"I don't know... But there is something I have to tell you now.
I'm sorry, Jesse. I didn't tell you this earlier, I...had sex with J."
(J was Ellie's ex-boyfriend)
Me: "W-what?"
" On that day when C and I fought, I went to the club. I wanted to relax.
Then J was there. He came up to me and.......I don't know. My mind was in a whirl.
I didn't know what was I doing. And.. And... The next day I found myself......Oh god, Jesse"
All I could do was to embrace her.
Then my mind went into a mantra state.
"She needs You, Ellie. She needs You."
After sending the teary-eyed bestfriend of mine home,
I logged onto the web to search more information on HIV.
Ellie said that she needed to be retested in 3 months due to the risk factors she had.
She was going for the Wesler Blot test next.
Trey came over and I told him everything.
I couldn't help breaking down.
Ellie needs me and I know I need Trey.
I love You, Trey.
March 16th, 10.23PM
These 10 days, I've been visiting Ellie everyday.
I'm so grateful to Trey for his moral support and love for me,
despite the fact that I only see him once a week, ):
I don't know what I'd do without him.
Ellie has been in a melancholy ever since the results were out.
I cannot help crying, looking at the state she was in.
She lost so much weight.
I was trying to search for the symptoms of HIV on Ellie.
No mouth sores. No rashes of various types. No sore throat.
No fever. No infections.
Fatigue. Check.
Well, her cries must have worn her out.
Right? That's right.
Ellie is going to take the test on the 20th.
This time, I'm following her.
I dread the results, sigh.....):
On a side note, C has forgiven Ellie.
Their love is even stronger now.
C said: "I knew what was love, because of her."
I knew it too, because of you, Trey.
March 18th, 6:05PM
GREAT NEWS!!!!!!!
Today, at Ellie's place, I was helping to tidy her desk,
when I came across a letter containing her test results.
The letter stated that she had to go for the Wesler Blot test
on the 20th of March.
I already knew that.
However, her name was spelt wrongly.
Eleanor *inserts actual surname and chinese name*
was spelt as Eleanor *inserts actual surname and another chinese name*
(sorry! Ellie doesn't want people to know her chinese name)
Something was not right!
I went to the hospital, clutching the letter tightly in my clammy hands.
Please let it be wrong. I prayed.
I asked the nurses to verify it once more.
And........
It turned out that they accidentally swapped the test results!
They handed the test results of another girl's to Ellie!
Who happened to have the same name, same surname, same chinese name spelt with a different character!
E.g : Bing as Ding! Whoohoooooo ^^v
I was so ebullient and elated that tears of joy emerged
as I hurriedly punched in Ellie's number on my phone.
I explained to Ellie the situation, choking in between my tears.
Her scream pierced into my ears.
But that did not bother me, she was happy,
so was I. ^^
I hung up the call with Ellie,
and immediately punched in another set of numbers.
Once, twice.
"Hello?"
"Trey? Let's meet up now!"
March 28th, 3:15PM
Life is back to normal.
Cameron, Ellie. Ellie, Cameron.
Trey, Jesse. Jesse, Trey.
However, C, E, Trey and I are more aware of the consquences of sex.
We all agreed that there is no need in rushing into things.
A=Abstinence
B=Be Faithful
C=Condoms
Alright, gotta go!
I'm going to meet up with Trey before heading down to the Convention Hall in school
to support Cameron's and Ellie's HIV Talk.
Just 1 last note, I love You, Trey!
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